I've been trying for a while to figure out how to say what I have been feeling.
It has been extremely hard to face the facts of reality myself.
So I will just start by saying that I know life is precious.
And I am sorry I didn't take the time to talk to you, and find out that you were hurting.
I shouldn't have been so stubborn.
I just hope you know... I love you.
And know that I will do everything in my power to help you.
I knew there was a specific reason why I needed to do baptisms.
I will make sure to give you that opportunity. I promise.
Faith is really helping me right now.
And in a little over a month I will be 21.
Such a nostalgic age.
And weirdly enough, it just feels like another birthday.